dont make fun of me
this is cheesy

but i suck at showing appreciation for people and lately i have realized how amazing everyone is in my life. people that i talk to, people that ive never said a word to in my life. people i bump into in the halls..and my very best friends. i just really wanted to let people know that i feel very blessed to have you in my life.

little things get me down. like not being in the front row for a music number? having the guy i like not liking me back? getting a b on a test? doing bad at rehearsal? someone annoying me? the list goes on....

i hate it.

and i feel so selfish for everything. i look around and i see and hear about so many unfortunate things that are going on and all i think about is..."omg i need to get my homecoming dress!" im not trying to put myself down. i just think that sometimes people judge me wrong. like i have no personality and only care about myself.

im just a crazy person with no substance. and that i suck at being a friend.

please just need to know that i care about everyone. there are feelings inside of me besides happiness. and sometimes truth lies within laughter. beauty is not skin deep. i have a heart